Patience

What i need to do now is be patience, not to get pissed with 'someone'. Even though i have anger inside my heart, i still have to smile when i see this person. Bear with them a few more hours. That's all i need to do.

Things are so unfair sometime that you couldn't complain too much, what i can do is borrow a pair of ear from one or two persons.

I am so exhausted, tired. I can't take it, but i have to take it. I get insomnia, no matter how tired i am, i still couldn't sleep well.

Trying so hard to be cheerful when i meet people, wanna hide away my tiredness and my negative emotions. I believe i make it. So far so good.

This is the only place to tell my secret, to the public but not face to face. I feel much better to type it down instead of saying it out.

O.F.F

Chiang Chiang Chiang

Almost one week i abandon my blog, really not in the mood to update because of the phone call. I thought i will receive in one week time, but no answer; no email. I guess I'd failed. but none of my friends receive too. ArHhhh...feel so bad.

OT OT OT, continuously 7 days already. Sunday work, 31st have to work too. DragggggggGGggg...

Finally, i back to training today, sweat a lot; i like it; performance drop a lot; i hate it. Yikes... Got to commit more.

Will update again, hopefully...=)

Waiting

Waiting is torturing... second day already, i'm still waiting. Thinking of it everyday, every second, every minute. I don't like this feeling, but, what to do...is all out of my control. Even though is my BRAIN, i can' control it.

Two out of Five have done. Three more to go...

Sunday, same routine. Something different is went to McD to hang out a while. Haha, at least i did go out somewhere in this lovely day. So...23rd of August, one more week+ 1 DAY before 1st of Sept. Yes, why i mention that 1 DAY??? Because today, SUNDAY!!! They ask me back to office for OT!!! Why not they just make it to Monday??? Yiuuu~~~ So frustrating!!!

Anyways, i guess this will be the last month of working, college is going to reopen soon or if i get an offer from somewhere. So i decide to resign.

One more week to destine my dream. One more week...

light shoulder

Wow!!! I feel so much released now. Feel like a tans of stone had been abandoned from my shoulder!!! Feel so good, MAN!!!

I feel so proud of myself that i'l be able to drive all the way from Kepong-Kelana Jaya(pick my friend up)-Sepang and from there back to Kepong again. Wooof...no lost!!! Tak ade sesat. A big big thanks to YY who told me to follow the signboard from A-Z.

God bless me too and thanks for the signboard=P

At this moment, i really not dare to judge myself whether i pass or fail. I already do my best. Results will come out in one week time.

Great day for me, thank god=)

Hopefully i can reach there on time tomorrow. 'Deng Deng' God bless me, i don't want to lost in the middle of the road.

Get set, GO~~~

Errr...today, i went for class at KL, is a short briefing for saturday. Ermmm...raining heavily when i wanted to take monorail back to kepong. Luckily got something to cover me. Arrived home around 9 smtg, met mum up at her friend's house, headed to night market and follow by dinner. Eventually, arrived home quite late and i'm going to bed after this.

Is getting nearer... I talk until 'SIEN' already, but...still want to say, i feel damn NERVOUS.

OK,

GOOD NIGHT.

Yesterday after i came back from training, around 11pm, i wanted to sign in MSN and blog. But, cannot on9 due to whatsoever Internet connection problem.

I guess i seldom sign in to MSN recently, except during my working hour. When i everytime I arrive home, i don't feel like signing in msn. Due to some personal emotional problem. Anyhow, i'm now trying to get rid of it. But i guess these few days i will be quite busy with something, which is really really important to me. Next week will be another better week for me, (i hope*bless me*).

HmMm...i seldom hang out recently, especially with Mulians. Some of them are busy with test, with work, study, etc... Hardly can find a time to come out. More and more Mulians will be leaving on next month.

MULIANS, hopefully we can have one more outing before three of you leave, which consists more than 10 persons to join .

BAD

'I feel like i need to change.
'I feel myself is so bad.
'Bad person, bad attitude.
'Being so fake sometimes,
never treat people sincerely.
'Being so selfish sometimes,
when i just think about myself.
'Being so impatience always,
always scold in that person in my heart when i'm so not satisfy with him/her.

Recently, things around me are going quite smoothly. I know, god is blessing me. Bless me a lot and bless me two days ago for successful in the interview; bless me yesterday, making myself performing well in the class. Because of this, i mustn't be a bad person, i am fortunate for who i am and i shouldn't take things for granted.

I don't want to be a devil, i just feel myself is so so so bad recently. I don't want to be selfish, i don't want to talk bad things, i don't want to be impatience. I don't want to be a bad person.

R.I.P Sylvester

Even I'm not close to him, but...(so much words that i can't describe by words). Yesterday, when i get to know the news of you, it was a big shocked for me. I just can't believe it came so sudden, when i told Jing who was just came out from the interview room, even she was so happy that she got through, but she cried immediately when i told her the news.

Then...
She told me something,
'I feel so regret that i never close with him before even he is my classmate'.

And this...
remind me of something, appreciate everyone who is around you, don't care you like or don't like him/her, just put the hatred aside. Try to love them, treat them sincerely as your friend. As you don't know, one day... He/She might just leave like this...

Yesterday,
At night,
In the car,
I heard ZH said Sylvester actually hope that we(Mulians) can pay a visit to him when he was in hospital. When i heard about this, my tears stream down. None of us know he wanted us to visit him and i do not know he was is hospital and seriously sick. I think the last time i saw him was in OU with Mulians, that time me and Zh was sitting on the bench waiting for them to finish movie.

During the funeral,
I saw him, i feel so much(again, feelings that cannot be tell by words). Saw the videos of him, and some words,
'You are not alone, you will always be in our heart, we miss you; we love you, RIP Sylvester'.
I think this sentence tells ours feeling... Time by time, the song of MJ 'You are not alone' was broadcasted. Again, it brings out the message from us 'Syl, you are not alone'.

Until now,
I'm still thinking of this friend.

To Syl,
May you R.I.P, i will always remember you and miss you.

It is so overwhelming, i just can't stpo thinking about it every second, every minute... It's getting closer. Butterflies all over my stomach. I hope everyone, including myself can do well this time.

Not until end of this week, i will not settle my mind down. I plan to MIA for my blog until Sunday(if it's a good news); until Monday(if it's a bad news).

Not to forget, all the best to Taman Ehsan TKD team for the coming tournament and sorry i will not be there but i will always support all of you mentally here.

GOSH!!! Again!!! I just can't stop it!!!

I know

I know why I put my status to Busy today (even though I'm not)
I know why I feel so sleepy today (even though i nap)
I know why I chat with her so little today (even though i miss her so much)
I know why I don't want to talk much today (even though i am such a talkative person=P)

BECAUSE
I feel emo,
for upcoming...xxx
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I feel nervous about something,
is about my future, my dream.
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I feel scared,
scared of failure;
scared to disappoint someone.

BLESS ME.

What i like

This is what i like, HOLIDAY=) Went out with mum in the early morning, 7am, visit my aunt and went to market... Reach home, eat, watch tv and take a nap, after half an hour of napping... Someone rang my doorbell, i quickly woke up, changed my clothes and opened the door. It was 'Jing Jing', she stood outside there, i was so surprised, she just came so sudden, she sent me a message but because of coverage problem, i didn't receive any; sent a msg in msn, of course i don't see it, i was sleeping... So...force to wake up lo... And we started our 'PRINT TEE' mission. We did three T-shirt in 3 hours time...

After all, i was sweating and felt so hot... Quickly bath and get ready to training. This time training, sweat a lot, laugh a lot, sampat a lot... Especially those 'PUI PUI' one, who makes so much noise that cause so much laughter...=P

Random pictures are taken as below:

See the 'MACHO' guy, and it is SOoooo BIG...@.@

Of course, not to miss the 'golden opportunity' to pose together with them=)

Fei Lou (take 1)

Fei Lou (take 2)

Fei lou (Take 3)
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Next stop, Chandran... (Thanks to 'UNCLE' who treated me and jing, i know...i already owe you a lot=P

THE END~~~

ZzZ...

Cook

Yo...=) First day of holiday, feeling a bit bored a home... So, i decide to make a...SMASHED POTATO. Is not my first time, this is the second time. And i make it!!! Hooray~~~

Here's the process, boiled the potato and the sauce at the same time. It takes so long to soften the potato,about half and hour=S



In order to success, i bring my laptop to the kitchen, looking at the on9 recipe and ask the expert(Ma Xiao Jie) at the same time=)



The outcome...=P (Take 1)

Take 2

Take 3

I think is not bad=P I dare not to put my blog title as 'MASHED POTATO', just in case anyone google and read my blog and...haha...

Twice!!!

Why did you want to attack me twice in a day??? Day once; night once!!! Do you know how i will feel when you said those words to me? What if i say back this to you??? Will you get hurt same as me???

Not the first time you saying this to me, is uncountable!!!

I learn things because i love it, not because i am GREEDY!!! Damn it...how dare you said this word to me??? If i don't take taekwondo, where am i get the scholarship??? If i don't take design course, how can i get my current job now? If i don't take the FA course, how can i learn so much things and get a change to go for interview? Not because i am GREEDY!!! Is because i do things for REASONS!!! Understood??? Reasons??? When i failed, you scold me, when i do well, you will just said 'OK' or nothing!!! Why human always look at the negative side??? Can't you just look at the good side of mine???

Again, this is the last time i tell you, i will make my own decision, as long as i don't get accepted by airlines, i will still continue my degree!!! Stop asking me to quit ,my study!!! Why got such things, parents don't want their children to be educated??? Don't you feel proud when i get good results??? Do you???!!! If yes, stop asking me to quit!!! Unless you want a grade E daughter!!!

Please look further!!! If i get a degree cert, i can get a better job than my current job now!!! I told you, i don't like the ad that i designed!!! You want me to have 1.2k salary whole life??? You always want me to give you a better life, do you think i can do it just with this 1k salary??? Please...put your mind, think further!!! Last time, don't ask me to quit study!!! I am big enough to make my own decision, I DON'T NEED YOUR ADVISE!!! PLEASE STOP IT!!! I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!

Tough Decision

Two options, go here or go there... I might choose the..'not so good' one because i afraid of failure... I know i sound like a loser, but...i believe no regrets.

Don't know what I'm crapping??? I will reveal on next Sunday=)

Schedule had been so tight these few days, luckily i got one week off, if not i have to take leave again. God, really helps me a lot... I am so fortunate, *sometimes...

Off to bed... Good night=)

Wo yeh~~~ Nothing to talk...haha. I got a celled from Inter Excel, something is happening again... Ermmmm, i keep is suspense first, will review soon... Lol.

Today, i tot i can treat mun for dinner,but ended up...buy food from Pasar Malam...=S She said don't go restaurant, is too expensive... Haiyoh...=S

Feel super excited now, don't know why... I'm addicted to 'Typing Maniac' recently, i love typing games, yohoo~~~

So...someone missed call me in the damn early morning, 5.44am. And it keeps me awake until my alarm ring...=S I should shut down my phone...shit. Damn, please...don't play that kind of stupid miss call again, i already get not enough sleep!!!

As usual, same routines... Just that my mum looked for me to lunch, even just half an hour, i appreciate very much, even though i see her everyday, the moment i went down from car, i hope i can follow her back to her shop. Not because i am lazy, just... sound awkward, i know...=P

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Tuesday, day 2 of whatsoever... LOL...

Same routines, same look, same house.... Nothing much to blog. I'm just feeling sleepy right now, so so so sleepy. Want to skip training later, but...I'd been absent for two weeks; but...i feel so tired now; but...i feel obese now; eventually...i still have to go no matter what...XS
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September~~~ I'm waiting for your arrival, weeee~~~

Nah Nah Nah, update

Tada~~~ Here i am to blog about yesterday and today's event.

Well...I went to Pavillion yesterday, first in my life time. Previously, i wanted to go there so much, but the place is too high class, not dare to step in. But today, with the accompany of my fellow FA friends, we went there together. I realized, they have a alternative way to go KLCC, @.@!!! Whao whao whao!!! I know right, i am 'sampat'. What to do, i thought KLCC is far away from Pavillion. We just walked around for a while and headed to Sg. Wang to buy cosmetics at Elianto as we know we can get 20% off if we show them our Inter Excel Student card. But...unfortunately, they said my card was expired, so i get no discount...awwww...=S I still bought it anyhow...

Next stop, went to OU with Mulians, watched 'Taking of Pelham 123'. NICE!!! More details, please check out M-blog=P

Today, back to work again. I awake quite late this morning, 9.50am... I turned off my alarm and back to sleep again, who knows, i overslept... And late to work for 25minutes. Luckily, the boss just arrived, if not...i gonna have a bad impression in front of him. Not much work for today, just a little bit of banner and whatsoever... Dare not to think about 'end of the month' yet... Nightmare~~~

xxx

I'm freaking sleepy now, will update tml=P

Party Night

Yo, wassup!!! Haha...what a wonderful day i had today=)

Today, still consider Saturday. Taman Ehsan Taekwondo Club is having their anniversary party at Bukit Desa basketball court, so awkward, right??? Since it is an outdoor event, of course, more air, more space and feel so refreshing. Thank god, no rain... I guess god can see their effort, right??? Anyways, i arrived quite late and by the time i arrive, the food are almost kong, but i still eat a bit la... Still not very in the appetite to take so much food. I don't have much photos, most are with ANT, will upload when i get it. It was a fun night though, get a chance to hang around with them, even it is short, but is memorable.

I only have these to share at this moment... take a look at this silly boy...=P



Next plan, Tan Jing's birthday celebration at Island Cafe, Metroprima. Surprisingly, the Mulians are with her, i guess she must be very surprised to have this happen, THANKS to Miss Sin Ying who plan this up; also...not to forget Chun Ming who called up all the peoples to attend and Keng Wei who bought the cake(you really blind lo...cannot see me passed by=P). More details will upload in Mblog which this can be consider one of our outing. Special guest, Sook Ann and Zhee Ping. It was a fun night and we took a lot a lot of pictures, thanks to ANT for the caMARA~~~
Lastly, not to forget to wish her

'HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY, Tan Jing'