Mistake

Sigh~~~
Here is my update after 5months of absentee.

There is only one reason why i am absence for my blog for such a long time, it is because i have someone with me whose always there to share with me my laughter and tears.

That's him!!!

At this moment, i just feel so regret for so many times in my in my life for the big silly mistake i had made. And for the very first time i feel like going for work so much, working up in the sky in such a fascinating moment for me!!!

What i had done on the 14th was i MIA for the flight, the reason (ask me if you want to know). It is confidential. It is such a careless and stupid mistake. I will not forget for the rest of my life and i will not repeat the mistake for the rest of my life anymore.

Everything does happen for a reason, but until now i still couldn't find what the reason is for me being MIA on that day? Can it be the only reason for me to realize how important this job is meant for me?

And my dream....

Can i still touch the sky with my own hand?

Great 8 days

A great 8 days of my life...

At this moment, i just feel so thankful. I have a bunch of good friends.
-Friends who are with me continuously for 5 days straight.
-Friends with me under one roof for 5 days.
-Friends who celebrate with me for 3 days.
-Friends who are willing to help me whenever i ask, they will never say NO.

This bond is so tight until it couldn't break. I wish the bond is forever, not a full stop.

I love all of you!!!

Routine

26th of Nov was the worse day ever that i he had been through so far.
The level of stress, anxious is at the peak of my head.

I always say 'this is an easy job; the only thing is human factor'.
Sometimes, when the senior says something about you, you can only sit there and listen. You didn't know how to fight back even though he will ask 'anything you want to say?'. I will answered 'No, i am sorry'.

I struggle; i cried. No matter how it is, you still have to get back to work at the end with a smiling face.
Until now, it still left a very big impact on myself. If ever i get the position again, the level of stress will go the the top of my head.

'We work, we fall and we climb back to the progress' This is very true.
I'm climbing now, i will try my best not to let this thing happen on me again.

Appreciation

I didn't know how many times i had mention this in my previous blog.
But i just feel thankful right now, i was not born in a rich family nor a complete family. But what i have now, is worth more than that. I am good with my mum; i am good with my brother.

I have a job, even now i am still chasing for my dream, i will still go for it, even if i don't get it, at least what i am doing now is the half achievements of my dream.

I have a bunch of good friends and people who love me.

Who else in the world can get a life like this, maybe you are, but not all.

Life goes up and down, when you are at the downhill, think back who are there to support you and is it worth to be sad or feel disappointed? Maybe yes, but just for a while. Tomorrow will still be a better day.

Cheers=)

Coicidence

I am alone in a place right now; but with my laptop i am not alone.
Since i came here, i learn to be more independent. Without mama's care, mama's dish, i got to be more independent. Learn how to sort things out by myself. And now i can be alone most of the time, but not always, because i am not an alien=P

The flight has been canceled today, if i know thing like this will happen, i would have stay in Kepong for one more day and i can go for curry mee with Mulians yesterday. I guess sometimes god is really helping me, because the senior that i'm going to work with today is someone that i don't really want to work with. I got duty change last minute and i got a bit released, but not FULLY released. Because i couldn't work with another crew that i really love to work with and my flying hours get deducted.

Thing always happen in such a coincidence way, alot of incidents happen on me in such a way recently. I would say is a good COINCIDENCE. The time will come when it comes.

Four more days to go, i get to hang out with someone i love in this coming saturday, yipee!!!
I love my life=)

Dare to Dream

Everyone has a dream, you can dream whatever you want and try you best to achieve it. Nothing is impossible because the words impossible read as

I M POSSIBLE

See that, people? Dare to dream, nothing is impossible. Even though if you can't get what you think at the end, at least you know you have tried your very best(Make sure you did)! Just move on with your life, who knows something better is waiting for you.

I always believe everything happens for a reason. I had been through quite a few incidenst that i believe this is very true.

I just hit the 'send' button, i had made another move. More actions to be done to reach my dream.
Weeeee~~~~~~~~

3 days in Academy

I really love to stay in academy instead of going to work.
First day in academy, refreshment of safety and first aid.
Second day in academy, tons of exams and practical exams.
Third day in academy, CRM (Crew Resource Management) and announcement.
I learn something very useful from this module, if anyone interested, i would like to introduce to you about a incident named Helios 522, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GoVYYhQX-UY

Woah, how i wish i can stay there longer. I don't mind taking exams everyday. The class consists of Flight Attendants and Pilots, god... seeing them for three days in a row, it makes my desire to achieve my dream getting stronger and stronger.

I don't want to think about anything else at this moment, i just want to concentrate in my career. Nothing else is important than that at this moment except my friends and family.

5 days

What i had done for the pass five days?
Errrmmm...i enjoy pretty much!!!

Of course, in the first day on leave, i stay at home because i need to recharge my power XD
Second day, of course is one of the Mulian's birthday celebration, i drink abit, drunk abit, tipsy alot. The most happiest part is...the true or dare session la. Wah piang, xuang dao~~~

On the third day, nothing much la... Yc only but it was a really nice yc session because i get to know whats people are thinking when they are kissing, LMAO!!!

On the fourth day, yc also at two places. How...AMAZING is that!!! Eventually, i can't stop talking nonsense through out the whole night.

The last day, i went out with mum, watch a movie-RED, it was a nice show, an action movie but it's funny, LMAO!!!
And finally, i went for a hair cut, errr...i lost my curl hair a little, my fringe is shorter, But overall, i feel satisfied, at least i don't got heart attack when i see myself in the mirror which i always do.

This coming weekends is gonna be another busy weekends, i think i will enjoy my off day this time=)

I love GUYS for life!!!

'Do you have a bf?'
'No, i don't have.'
'Don't lie la... Impossible'
'No, i single for many years already.'
'O no!!! Are you a lesbian?!'

'...........'

O man... Nowadays a lot people thought that i am a lesbian. 'Ta nai nai de~~~~'
The conversation above always happens during my flight, they don't believe what i had said and thought that i am a lesbian, worse come to worse, they INSIST that i am a lesbian.

I had came through a very ridiculous conversation recently....
'Do you have a bf?'
'No'
'How long you never kissed already?'
'I can't remember'
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.
.
.
.(more conversation continues)
'Are you a lesbian?'
'Of course not, i love guys for life'

Friend who knows me well, they know i am not a lesbian, they know how to pronounce my name properly. I don't blame you for misunderstanding that i am a lesbian. I just want to share with all of you here that

I LOVE GUYS FOR LIFE!!!

Job

After working for almost one year as a cabin crew. I can say this is an easy job, the only thing difficult is 'human factor'. Working in different gravity, the fatigue level increase pretty fast. Now you know why i can sleep 12hours, sleep from the moment i back from work until next day i work.

Also, one thing i really treasure is the crew, especially when i get a nice set of crew. Even though you just work with them for one day, you can really get close to them. Is nice to see two or three persons willing to wait for you after work and walk together to the car park. Even though is just a minor thing, but it's make a big difference.

When you are out of your area, you do need friends which is close to you, willing to help you. Just like yesterday when my car tire give way, i can only call my housemate who is working at LCCT to help me out, no second thoughts, he straight away come to help me without giving excuses.

I can't live without friends, all of us need friends, no matter where we are.

I won; i lost

A day that i will never forget, if you see my facebook album, you will know everything.
The abilities that i use to have, is no longer with me. Flashing back last time when i was 17 and 18, i can still do those kicks, even is not that good... But at least i fought with my heart. I know, this time i went there is just for fun, but seeing myself being kicked and i kicked in that way, i feel so bad.

I got a medal, but i don't feel proud at all... I can only get back my fame like last time if i train consistently, be brave and if i have more stamina.

This sport is always something that i couldn't hands off. It brighten my life and brought me a bunch of good team mate. I can say, it changes my life also.

Whatever it is, I lost because of the match; i won because i gain something that money cannot buy on 17/10/10.

Insecure

Don't know why i feel insecure right now. I feel anxious, don't know worry about what. Must be i emo...

I got to back to work tomorrow, thank god is afternoon flight, so that i can get more rest and hang out with Mulians=)

The sinus still with me, got to torture for another five days again. Hope it won't be so worse like the pass few days.

Upcoming working days is gonna be tough for me, FAE on board to check flight, a SFA that i don't want to fly with (i hope she is not the worse that i thought). All the best to me, things will go smoothly=)

Thoughts

Sometimes, thoughts will just come randomly. It makes you want to do this; do that. I can't control myself from thinking those things that i don't want to, i got to convince myself that... To think positive.

I enjoy my off days, i enjoy my life. I don't want to demand too much, it will come when the time is right. Be myself. I am always the happy and cheerful girl.

I want my dream to come true so badly... How good i f i can achieve it. I will work super hard on it in order to achieve it.

I don't know what else can i write here, everyday is the same routine. I'm don't want to express my personal feelings over here. Because is privateeeee~~~ =)

I'm doing fine, i'm doing great. I'm enjoying my life now and i work very hard everyday.

I feel so great because i back to AK again. I feel so happy. Even though is small, but i feel better. Sometimes, you don't need extravagant things or being glamor just because you fly D7, got night stop, duh??? Not everyone likes it, especially me. I hate D7. Work at odd hours; sleep at odd hours.

Few days ago, i get a golden opportunity to sit in the cockpit, the co-pilot seat and the captain seat. Wow!!! Not only that, i get to control the aircraft, of course, instructed by the captain and i did the triple chime for landing. Yohoo!!! Once in my life time, i get a chance to do something so...GREAT!!! It burns up my flame more and more, i was advise by the Captain to see someone. Hopefully, my dream can come true... I'm looking forward to it=)

I made it!

I can't believe i had gone through that. The 10hours is just like 10 days. How i hope the time flies faster for the first time in my life. I feel so torturing through out the flight, it just like a nightmare. I nearly cried because of the nervous, tension...

When i see change of crew name, and is the Top 10 people that i'm going to fly with, i nearly fainted. But, thank god, the Top 10 is not that terrible as i thought.

For the first time, i was treated that way, sometimes people is just too sarcastic. I can only be patience and keep quiet. Even though i know the apology is not sincere, i will still take it. Try to leave all the unhappy thing on the table, not to bring back home.

I feel glad that I do not need to fly the X again, alots of rumors say that they are going to remove those flights on our next month roster. How cool is that. I don't want nightstop, i don't mind. Because i don't want to work at 4pm, finish on the next day 4am, is just too fatigue for me. I love AK. I know i am so not ambitious, but that's my way...

Two more days to go, i feel so nervous. The feeling of first day flying for A320 is back again. I still got to go through it anyhow. I keep telling myself that i can make it. Yes, i can!!!

Something keep bothering about me recently. I think i should really be generous abit, let go, let go, let go!!! I know, things will turn better when the time comes. But, at this time, it bothers me so much.

Back to home is always the best thing, i always look forward for my off days. I would like to stay at home, lie on the sofa and watch tv. Thats the best thing that i really love to do besides hanging out with friends.

Control my 'nafsu', don't let my 'nafsu' controls me.

Maybe i already get use to it not to speak during this very tense moment. But, i will try my best to turn thing better. Perhaps after i back from work again this weekend?

Yes, i did say 'play less, spend less'. But today i spent 'some'... I tell myself i will not shop for 'tops and bottoms' again until end of the year. Sometimes, you work for so long, you really need to buy something to pamper yourself, right? But not too over la...

I receive a message from someone on Facebook, wow!!! Sometimes, is true that a simple message will lighten up your day. And, it makes me feel so much want to go back to college life again. How i wish if i can go back now and be in the same group of people again, i will definitely apply for study leave.

I have to work very hard from now, give 100% on my job, manage my finance AGAIN so that everything go smoothly.

Well...i'm still waiting for something. Alotss of things...

No Regrets

Money does matter...
Every time come to this issue, argument will occur.

I know i have to sacrifice myself in order to make someone feel more contented. Myself is nothing, but that somebody is everything for me.

Money can earn, love cannot earn. No love, money is nothing. I can only live happily with love surroundings me.

So, i determine to make that somebody feel happier in order to extend my plan.
Eat less, play less, save less...
As long as she is happy, i got no regrets.

I feel so reborn when i back to home!!! YeeeeesssssS! Everytime last day working, i always got the very excited feelings in my heart, no matter how tired i am, when i think of going back to home, i can beat the sleepiness, i feel so hyperactive right now, yohoo yohoo!!!

Yesterday something happened, i can't believe i am so brave to say out something like this. I guess working as what i am now really change me quite a bit. I think is a good thing though.

I will be going for paintball tomorrow, yohoo!!! I can't wait, chiuw chiuw chiuw chiuw~~~~